I'm having a tough day...

Being a mother of 2 special need children is not easy. I get sad allot and today is one of those days. It all started with a call from my daughter's case manager for her special education. She expressed to me today that Alexa is regressing academically and behavorally. She said that she needed to meet with me and her father. I told her to give me a date and time and if he wanted to show up he would. I told him the date of the conference and I told him I would let him know the time and of course he said cool like he always does. The issue is he conviently forgets and says the day of the meeting that he can't make it and there is not room to rescedule. I'm angry with him at the moment because I'll get blamed like I typically do for Alexa and How I'm not doing right by her. Seems like lately all I do is wake up, clean, get screamed at by him and the children, get dinner, give baths, make sure homework is done, get kids to bed and then I go to bed. That is my day everyday. I don't get a break. I need a break!! I'm so emotionally exhausted. Sometimes I just need to be held and told it would be okay! Thank heaven I have GOD! Sometimes, I just wish I had physical arms to hold me. Now I need to get counseling for alexa and try other attempts at medication. I need to take a detour and get rid of the road that i'm on and try something else!!
xoxoxoxo,
Christi~

Need I say more....

THe altered cat- Peppermint....I'll explain the story tomorrow I believe I'm getting a little sleepy! LOL

Here are the goodies....

with the exception of the ribbon!! This is just a quick sneak peak of what they have coming up this next season!!

#*&! BAM **** poP @%&

What Can I say I had my first publishment last week from like my most favorite Paper company in the world!!
www.bampop.com just check me out in their gallery!
So this is the lo that has now been published and I loved all the goodies they sent me!!!
XOXOXOXO,
Christi~

I met someone.....

I know we are just getting to know each other,but i feel like we have made a connection. I know it sounds stupid and I always have this way of leaping before I should. I guess this is just the romantic in me. I wish I lived in Indiana though. That way I could see his face. Pictures are different because you really can't see what I'm looking for. The touch of his face, the smile when he has a deap, belly laugh or what he looks like when he is talking to me. I'm not totally sure he is my "MC Dreamy" but I hope I get the chance to find out. I'll see if and when he reads this whether he wants more contact over the phone. It isn't a test but this is me. I write about situation, moments or people that matter to me! It was rather funny he wrote me saying that he was interested in me and it kinda freaked me out. I guess you get so used to significant males in your life telling you what you have become is not what they no longer need or want. It took me quite sometime to write him back because I was scared that i was jumping in to quick. I was worried about making the wrong decision. My mom told me that I was just scared because the way this guy sounded he could be good for me too. She was right, I have not regreted writing that first message to him. If I hadn't written him then I would have never gotten the chance to meet someone intelligent, artistic, hardworking and funny. I hope I hear from him this weekend because If I don't my therapist will hear about it next week!! KWIM...lol. For you ezgoingguy I think you could rock my world and i think that is what scares me the most. That you may not feel the same connection that i feel. But I'll take it one conversation at a time. Maybe one day soon will get to meet and see each other!
xoxoxo,
Christi~

I'm so excited.......

Well As of Thursday, January 26th my new Scrapbooking teaching gig started! Now the forum and gallery are up and running and we are now looking for a design team! So here is the link for yal to go and check it out!!
This is for the store : http://www.creativescrapshack.com/
This is for the forum! http://www.creativescrapshack.com/forums/index.php
Have fun ladies and enjoy!!

OMgosh someone needs to smack....

ME!!!! I was just selected as the top 20 for scrapping with the stars on Coordinate Collections. I'm so excited. Check it out.....!






Here it is:
Alicia Merrifield
Amber Curtis
Anna Bjorklund
Catherine Grand-Perret
Christie Wright
Jamie Brown
Jessica Salber
Jill Cornell
Julianna Connolly
Kathy Van Essen
Kristin Baxter
Kristin Schultz
Linda Dias
Mary Jane Field
Michelle Jo Klomp
Mikaela Rudher
Rebecca Bose
Tiffany Bryant
Tiffany Rice
Yvette Patko

Ohh the Humdrum is back.......

And what better way to kick those blues but to take the time for a hot bath and some wonderful ginger and lemon tea!! That will shake these dulldrums away. Plus a little sex wouldn't hurt!! My life has just gotten way more interesting! I have a friend who is just starting a site and today she asked me to design for her company, help her with the kits and do all the classes on her site! I gotta tell you that is the biggest compliment that I could ever receive!! So today I don't think I'll be needing a bath or tea until this wears off! Thanks for the opportunity friend and I am wishing you congradulations and happiness in the world!!! You deserve it 100%. You are one of the most ambitious people I've ever met!!BTW I've always been a dream chaser so here is a pic of me and Donna Downey! Why because I ROCK!! And "I am perfect just the way I create"~Donna Downey

I love this Blog Challenge thing....

I love too have avenues open for me! I enjoy writing and this gives me the opportunity that I love to help others tell what they are feeling! Or something awesome their children are doing now~ I love this because we have so many memories in our minds and If I could have had more with Al I would give anything for it! Maybe I'm in the bargaining stage of loss! I do know when God supplies an opportunity I need to take it!
So what about you what opportunities are you taking that God has given you?
xoxoxoxox,
Christi~

Things my kids say......

Noah.....
Bingo- means that is right; "I'm missin' you alot mommy"; "Mommy my eyes are blurry" he says this when he has trouble with eye contact; "mommy what is wrong with my brain" - this is when he is asking about the autism; "don't let the bugs bite' " Sweet dreams'"- before he goes to bed.
Alexa.....
"you know what"; "like"; " Mommy, can I ask you something"; "what is one test"; " I can't control what I do"and my favorite" Your the best mommy ever"! I love them and they make me happy everyday they are in my life! Being a mother is definitely priceless!

This is my favorite layout! I'll express this by saying that I miss my stepfather everyday that has passed since his death back last Febuary the 8th. I wish I could speak to him now the way we used to. He is that Knight in Shinning Armor to my Mother and whom I would wait for the rest of my life. I wish there were still men out there like him. I'm not sure that there are men like him anymore in this world. Who just make you laugh, love you with everything they have and are always a bit nervous about you hurting them because they feel so much love for you. A man that will cry when he is sad and be who he was. He always used to say if you can't be who you are then who can you be? I always loved that saying. I love to reminisce about what kind of dad he was to me. I'll always remember the Little white house! I spent so much time in it! We had no running water and no electricity and no bathrooms. I remember I was helping Al with repairing something around the house and he asked me to hand him the hammer that was under the bed. I went under the bed to pick up the hammer. He bent down to show me where the hammer would be and then a mouse ran across my hand. I screamed bloody murder, right into his ear. I think he went deaf in that instant. Laughing. He always used to laugh when I would come to visit after that saying the screamer is hear. He was teasing me but I loved it. Me and Al had a bond. I hope that one day I will find a man like him for my children. He knew how to love and he taught me how to as well. So I do love this lo. It may not be the best or the most perfect but the Man I wrote it for was the reason I love it so much!
XOXOXOXO,
Christi~

ok been very busy...

I came home on the 2nd from my mothers house and went right back on the 6th and stayed till yesterday. I just had a weird wedding anniversary. January 3 it was 9 years of Chris and I being married. Fittingly, we have both come to terms with the separation. I might still care for him and possibly still want the good times but he was very honest in saying that the bad times are still to come and he can't change them from happening. His Job is a big problem in our marriage he is never home. I need to understand his point that his job pays the bills but my heart and our home need him in the house more. He says he can't change it and It's not what I need from the marriage. So we are both adults now, very fearful of what will become of us separately. It hurts because I wanted to be married forever. My mom asked me if I wanted the divorce, My response was it doesn't matter whether I want it, it matters whether we can keep the marriage happy and we ourselves can not. I need more! I'll have to move on. I guess this is why they call it irreconsilable differances. Ok enough about that craziness what a crazy bore.
I'll be starting up blog challenges on Treasured scrapbooing Tomorrow- whooo hoooo. So stay tunned for all of that fun.
Ok so I just got my hair colored before the holiday and I'll post a pic that I don't like really to show you what my hair looks like!! Take and throw away the old and bring on the new is what i say!! Laughing! Remember ladies.....YOU ROCK!!!!!!!!!!
XOXOXOXOXO,
Christi